I have learned over the past
year to write my to-do list in pencil. The list changes frequently, especially
in order of priority. What I think is top priority, quickly gets replaced by the
set of eyes in front of me at the moment, as I have to decide what needs taken
care of now and what can wait. Sometimes I have to look a little deeper into
those eyes to see that it's not really about whatever the latest request is.
That is usually an excuse to come around, because something deeper is going on
behind those eyes. Sometimes they end up sharing and sometimes we sit in silence
for what seems like an eternity and I quickly forget my to-do list and pray for
whatever it is that they can't talk about.
Our children have stuff buried deep inside their hearts and minds that sometimes their smiles can't hide. Sometimes I feel guilty sharing about our beautiful, peaceful Faith Home and leaving out the stuff that hurts. The reality of raising children who have been abandoned and abused, breaks my heart and often brings me to my knees in tears. We have been taking several of our children to a psychologist and have many more who need treatment as well. We don't want to just put a bandaid over the gaping wounds of their hearts, we want to help them find healing. We have found a psychologist who has agreed to come and work out of our clinic on the weekends to evaluate our kids and give them the best course of treatment. This is something that will be an ongoing priority for this ministry and it will cost money. About $750 a month that we don't have in the budget. I don't know who or where the money will come from, but I am trusting and knowing that God will provide. So as I look at my unfinished to-do list, I think of one of our girls who now has eyes filled with hope instead of defeat. I think of the amazing youth service we had last night after hours of a porch full of kids practicing for a drama that spoke of 'not waiting until its too late'. Some of those kids who a few months ago could care less about anything. I saw them come to life and work together as a team and minister to others. I also see others with empty eyes, full of pain and despair that I so desperately want to help. I pray that we can get them all the help they need to live life to the full, the way God intended them to. I pray that we can help them become powerful witnesses to the world around them. Please pray with us as we seek healing for our children. May we always remember to write our to-do lists in pencil and the needs of the person in front of us on our hearts. |
God Bless, Christina Massey, Director Faith Home Ministries -Honduras |
